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08 May 2011 @ 03:11 pm
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"But your problems are not going to continue for the rest of your life," I said, touching her back. "They'll end eventually. And when do, we'll stop and think about how to go on from there. Maybe you will have to help me. We're not running our lives according to some account book. If you need me, use me. Don't you see? Why do you have to be so rigid? Relax, let down your guard. You're all tensed up so you always expect the worst. Relax your body, and the rest of you will lighten up."

"How can you say that?" she asked in a voice drained of feeling.

Naoko's voice alerted me to the possibility that I had said something I shouldn't have.

"Tell me how you could say such a thing," she said, staring at the ground beneath her feet. "You're not telling me anything I don't know already. 'Relax your body, and the rest of you will lighten up.' What's the point of saying that to me? If I relaxed my body now, I'd fall apart. I've always lived this way, and it's the only way I know how to go on living. If I relaxed for a second, I'd never find my way back. I'd go to pieces, and the pieces would be blown away. Why can't you see that? How can you talk about watching over me if you can't see that?"

I said nothing.

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"I'm sorry," she said, taking my arm and shaking her head. "I didn't mean to hurt you. Try not to let what I said bother you. Really, I'm sorry. I was just angry at myself."

"I suppose I don't really understand you yet," I said. "I'm not all that smart. It takes me a while to understand things. But if I do have the time, I will come to understand you - better than anyone else in the world."
 
 
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01 May 2011 @ 09:32 pm
 

Hii haven't been here in a long while, and I can't quite remember how long has it been since I've last blogged (openly). Just gonna put up a quick summary of the past few months:

Taken my btt, gotten a pdl but have yet to start on my driving lessons. Got myself a new job just for the fun of it and realizing that a desk-bound job really isn't for me. Questioned myself about my future, my regrets, my life and my-self too many times.. Encountered a few rough patches here and there, but with the help of my faith (myself), managed to emerge again as a stronger person. Built up stronger relationships with people I've always known but never had the chance to interact with. But on the downside, lost one (or two) relationships with others due to negligence on my part and the inappropriateness of the way I deal with things at times. Learnt to appreciate and be grateful. Learnt to respect and acceptance comes along gradually. What hurts more however, are the lost relationships over the years that I've never tried to mend. Which unfortunately, is too late to salvage now. Life goes on xx.
Will be back to blog another time :)

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03 April 2011 @ 03:53 am
 
Trials, temptations, disappointments -- all these are helps instead
of hindrances, if one uses them rightly. They not only test the fibre
of a character, but strengthen it. Every conquered temptation
represents a new fund of moral energy. Every trial endured and
weathered in the right spirit makes a soul nobler and stronger than
it was before.

-- James Buckham

Stupidity overwhelms when rationality kicks in
 
 
05 March 2011 @ 04:29 pm
 
God bless you and keep you and bless the work of your hands :)
"Some people will walk into your life to help you, without expecting any returns."
Thank you :)
 
 
01 March 2011 @ 01:49 pm
 
What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone